Where The Light Comes In

Hi friends! I am so glad I'm able to share part two of this Epilepsy update! Part one: https://bayleykatherine.blogspot.com/2018/11/broken-being-healed-in-unexpected-ways.html The Forth Test: The forth test is supposed to be a 72 hour EEG, but unfortunately, we've hit an insurance snag and it's been put on hold. We aren't sure what's coming next for our family, but we are trying to trust Jesus. My biggest goal is to be found faithful. I want to be faithful. I want to be obedient and a faithful servant of my God and King. He is so worthy and it is a privilege to worship Him. It is a privilege to experience this pain. He's granted me the gift of suffering! This suffering, these trials, this ache is an opportunity and a blessing. My worship has grown and my relationship with God has blossomed. I have a more intimate relationship with my Heavenly Father and King! What a privilege! So no, we don't have answers, we're currently at a stand sti...

Hi friends! I am so excited to finally share an update with you! In case you've missed it here are some p revious posts I've written about Epilepsy and my journey with JME (Juvenile Myoclonic Epilepsy) : https://bayleykatherine.blogspot.com/2018/07/a-new-perspective.html   (most recent) https://bayleykatherine.blogspot.com/2018/07/update-update-update.html   (last update) https://bayleykatherine.blogspot.com/2017/11/hello-epilepsy.html https://bayleykatherine.blogspot.com/2016/11/disability-or-reability-my-epilepsy.html https://bayleykatherine.blogspot.com/2016/09/my-hallelujah-song.html https://bayleykatherine.blogspot.com/2015/06/silent-pain.html From the start of our journey to a diagnosis to where we are today... My First Doctor's Appointment: The doctor's appointment went nothing like we expected! It was so hard and not what we hoped for! It was definitely broken and it wrecked me! We got up and we got to the appointment on t...

This is such a holy experience. Re-living these moments. So much freedom. I feel such a responsibility to tell this story well, but I'm just going to rest and trust and lean into the Lord. I was seven years old and had just experienced a horrible, horrible abuse that broke me to my very core. I was lost, broken, and afraid. I was raised by wonderful, imperfect, amazing, Jesus-loving parents, we went to church and they led me well, but I didn't have a personal, saving relationship with Jesus Christ. Jesus wasn't my Savior and the Lord of my life. I was at enmity with God. I was a sinner in great need of a Savior and His redemption. One day I walked up to the kitchen table where Mom was standing helping one of my siblings and told her so timidly that I needed to talk to her later. We were laying on the bed and Jesus did the most incredible thing- He broke me and healed me in an indescribable way. In a glorious, truly miraculous way. He convicted me and showed me wh...

It's my choice. I can feel less than. I can feel not enough. I can feel like I'll never measure up. I can feel like the grass is always greener on the other side. I can believe the lie that I'm not making a difference. I can believe that I'm alone, that I'm the only one chasing these dreams. I can believe that it's all about me. OR I can know and live truth that it's not about me. I am less than without Jesus. I am not enough without Jesus. I will never measure up without Jesus. The grass is always greener where you water it. I am making a difference because of Jesus. I am not alone because of Jesus. It is all about Jesus. I'm combating the lies! The lies Satan pours over me. The lies I'm drowning in. The lies that I'm letting stop me from pursuing the things of God. The things He is laying on my heart to pursue. I am in a season of beginnings, of new and different, of remembering, of working through big, hard things. As I...

It's hard to be single in a world that says that's not enough. It's hard to feel "not enough". It's hard to feel left out in a crowd of people in relationships, married, or engaged. It's hard to see someone persuing that girl over there and feeling that ache because no one is pursuing you. It's hard to feel all the feels that come with being single. I'm right there with you, sweet sister! ♥️ You're not alone. BUT God has something magical in store for us and I want to talk about it with you! We can't stay stuck in this wondering, mourning, questioning, whatever negative feelings you've got going on because God calls us to something MORE! Something bigger than ourselves. Something that isn't focused on us or our desires for a husband. Something greater than we could ever ask or imagine. He calls us to live FOR HIM! Not for ourselves and if you're anything like me, that's a hard lesson to learn and a struggle to live by. It...

Any other Phineas and Ferb fans out there? Haha! "Monday! Monday!! Monday!!!"- Isabella 😂 Anyway-- Hi sweet friends! :) I am going to be sharing some updates for anyone curious and to document where God has us right now. :) This first one is all about where I'm at with epilepsy and what's coming soon for our family in this area. In the next post I will be sharing an update about my journey living with sexual assault and overcoming it and how the Lord is restoring. The third post will be my story of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) and where I'm at/how things are going in this season. There will definitely be more updates because a lot has been happening around here. I always want to share and be open, as well as documenting this journey for myself and so others can see and be reminded of the goodness of God! Much love and I hope these posts bless and encourage you! Let's talk Epilepsy first. For those of you who are new to my story, here is the sup...